So being from South Arkansas is a blessing and a curse. I've grown up here all my life, and all my cousins are from this part of the state and also from North Louisiana. I was adopted when I was a week old, I was born in Shreveport Louisiana and my mom got pregnant with me her freshman year in college. I actually found out I was adopted when I was really little, my parents told me when I was three... But that's a story for another blog post.
I took a DNA test about 7 years ago and found my biological mother. It didn't take very long. She has told my baby sister about me all my life, always celebrated my birthday, and thankfully when she found me she regained her faith in God. I know everybody struggles with that from one point to another, I know I'm guilty of it myself. You guys will remember the last blog post I wrote was about mustard seed faith, and sometimes that's all you need.
So the last several years I've gotten to know some of my biological family and come to find out that I'm Cajun which makes a lot of sense. I always stuck out just a little bit for my family, my hair is naturally curly, I have hazel eyes and mostly everybody in my family's eyes are blue and they're blonde headed.
My family's always taking really good care of me, but going through this divorce lately I had a really bad falling out with both my parents. I moved out from my home, moved El Dorado with a roommate, and ended up getting evicted ( something that was completely out of my control ) and then she ran off 5 hours away with a fiance after her husband just died of COPD around Thanksgiving. So I had to stay at the Salvation Army for about a week and let me tell you what... That was a life-altering experience for me. I've never been in a point of my life where I've had absolutely nothing except for the clothes on my back basically, and it really humbled me to be in a situation where I had to depend on a homeless shelter to feed me and to give me a place to lay my head at night because I'm always had everything I've ever needed and you tend to forget when you've got the basic necessities and somewhere to stay every day with a roof over your head how important and how essential it is.
haven't mental health issues is always been a problem for me. I was on depression medication when I was 17 years old all the way through my adulthood, and then when I had my 39 weeks still worth 7 years ago I ended up on more medicine that I never taken. Xanax is a terrible drug, and I know there's people that need it, but it got to the point to where I wanted to take it so I went to my regular doctor and weed myself off of it and I will never take that crap again. I've seen way too many of our friends get addicted to this stuff.. there's a reason that people sell it on the street. And my son has been on amphetamines for his ADHD for years and I hate that stuff too. I think my relationship with prescription drugs... Even over the counter stuff sometimes makes me nervous. I'm a medical marijuana patient. I have aPTSD diagnosis which is my qualifying condition. And I know there's a lot of people that don't agree with that as of course of treatment, but in my opinion God put that plant on this earth for us to use as medication and not to abuse it. It's been used for medicine for years and thankfully now that hemp has gotten legalized to grow there's actually a pharmaceutical company that is manufacturing the very first prescription medication that's made from cannabis for people with seizures. But, CBD is good for lots of other things other than just that.
I don't know if you guys have seen my Facebook post.. I don't know how many of y'all follow me on social media, but actually started a podcast... Well... I recorded the trailer the other day! And I'm going to be recording my first episode sometime this coming up week. So I'll be sure and link it below so you guys can go follow my podcast. It's the same title as my blog, so it's called no rear view and hopefully it'll help me have an outlet other than my blog to talk about everything I've been through since I was younger and especially this last past couple of years which have been some of the most rough experiences I've ever had my entire life. It literally feels like I've been through my own version of hell, and I absolutely hated it.
There's always a silver lining to everything though. And I have this ring I wear on my thumb That's Mark chapter 8 around it and I made a Facebook post on my page that I've made for my blog and my podcast, about how I'll always remember every time I look down that God will protect me from evil... Always.
Thanks for coming my Ted talk today! Lol I'll catch you guys for the next blog post!
Love you guys! Yee forever!!
